Lost
At times I feel like one who is looking at their self in a detached view. It isn't in the sense where I am trying to be detached, or even that I am unaware of it. It is more so that I know I am detached, yet desperately try to fit back in and connect. Not conforming to the mainstream or their behavior, but my own. How do I act? Losing ones self is near impossible to notice. You fall into a pattern of actions you cannot remember when you began. You don't know if it is your automatic response from years of usage, or was it what you truly meant to say. In this mindset, having forgotten ones self, are you simply amnemonic of surety, or are you undeniably obsolete? The former seems not quite so troublesome, whilst the latter proves to be a dilemma of sorts. If one was lost, their self and whole, then are they naught but an empty shell? A robot of the human physiology? However, If such were so, then there must be some kernel of self desiring regard. Lest I would not endeavor to find myself.